NVM

Nevermind my last post. I still LOVE HER!!!!! :(

yes

today marks the day I move on.....Wooooohooooo

NOT MUCH

oh well here I am not doing much......just watching tv....and enjoying the wind coming from my fan....theres nothing to do except for h/w but im to lazy.....i wanna play football or soccer well one of them but w/e.....im kinda tired wish i was allowed to use the car and idk wat else but yeah man....toady's not the best day to be writing so i guess ill just go now......bye bye

MISSING THEM

well....never much goes on in life that makes a big difference in how i feel.....I guess things r they r because they have to be that way.....nothing that i ever plan to do happens as i want it to, plans to me come spontaneosly with no warning....sometimes i feel like i get rushed into things that i dont want to involve myself with......I know that none of my friends will read this and i just want to tell them that I miss them, they all have a special place in my heart.....that will never be replaced by anyone ever.......I wish that i could tell them that they mean the world to me...some no longer speak to me but i hold no remorse, i just wish that they would see how deeply sorry i am, and that i would love to have things as they were before....I don't just want u back, I need u back all of you, all that have made a difference in my life and helped shaped who I have become...never again I swear will I ruin what we had and wat we could have, u all need to understand that i am human just as anyon else, and make mistakes, just hope that u guys can see past it......thats it.......I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW!!!

so much has happened during the last year of my life. I've been with diferent people...I've gained new friends and lost old ones...my life has gone into a blender and torn into little pieces of crap. but oh well there is nothing else I can do anymore, I have done something that is close to being unforgivable. well today I went to defend my friend from jail, and it all went well, he's out now, and only has a year of probation. I'm glad he's ok, so yeah, I think I'm the only person who will still be posting up these blogs so yup, my friends don't want much to do with me so convincing them to post blogs seems difficult.

Good Morning

well as the title says GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!.....I just woke up and just felt like writing...not much going on I'm just listening to music adn u know I'm gonna get ready for nothing cause I don't think I'm doing anythingn today....I feel really lazy today u know like....well nvm....lol.....well thats it I'm stilll tired so I think I'll go back to sleep

2006

Hey guys hows it been?....Do we still blog or is just me?...oh well who cares, it's been a pretty long ass time that I have been on here and writing something...lol.....so many things have happened between the course of highschool to now....so many hearts broken so many troubles so many adventures and so much fun.....life has changed drastically and I wouldn't just say 4 me but 4 all my closest friends....now that I think about we have somehow been drifting apart now and I don't really know why. I mean maybe I do but it's not that...how do u say like not very serious.....or is it?....yes I know that I use a lot of dots but I think it's cool....lol....anyways things as I said seem different...u know like we have all grown up or not grown up but u know like matured.....maybe I'm just feeling like this because my family is not here but heck maybe we really are a bit mature....I mean yes I know that we all still act kinda weird and stupid and all but heck what can we say we're still kids.....and of the different things that have happened don't even get me started....I can't speak much 4 my friends caus eu know as I said we're not as together as we used to be but many things have happened to me....lets start with school...yup I passed I'm officially a JUNIOR.....lol...it might not be much but u know....I did pretty good in my classes well at least the ones that I liked....lol....and now summer....well I ended school early because I had the opportunity to go to New Orleans it was cool u know....it was all part of this organization called Common Grounds....it was the this place in New Orleans where we went out in like groups and vaccumed fungus out of houses....I also cooked and most of all I had a lot of fun with Dia.....lol.....she's this girl who I went with to New Orleans....and man was she beautiful...she captured my heart in snap....lol.....I don't know what it was but the moments we shared together even though they weren't much it was still enough 4 me to be happy....she made me feel special or not even that but I don't know it's kinda hard to explain....but damn do I like her I don't know I even think I love her but u know it's kinda too early 4 that feeling or is it....but u know what I don't think it's too early because she's just what I have been looking 4.....from what I have experienced with girls trust me I know what I want.....lol....not like that.....it's like I know what type of girl it is that I want....I want a girl who won't lie to u(or 2 me)...lol....someone who won't later on bore u and someone that cares deeply 4 u...I mena it's hard to come by a girl like that cause of course it's just teenagers but "the best gifts come in weird packages".....well I guess none of that matters if that person doesn't feel the same for u as u do 4 them.....it's kinda depressing but as I learned it's stupid to dwell on what won't be...u know...trust me I know about this....lol....but oh well...I guess that would be it....just my ending thoughts are that us...the Brother Hood and the "girls"...lol...would u know get together and stuff like that because I think that we should....lol....well until next time(who knows when that will be)